day 2

So yesterday I was confused and today I am just angry. I don't see it. I guess I am not a professional. I don't have any special letters that come after my name except for MOM. I look at the things they are telling me about Henry and I have not noticed any of them today. He hasn't been flapping his arms, repeating words, or off in his own world. He was paying attention during lunch time and during dinner time when Makalia or I was talking. He was laughing and telling knock knock jokes with Makalia. His new favorite thing to do. So today I don't see anything they are saying.

I don't want my child labeled. I don't understand. I have been doing some reading and they say his pediatrician should have seen signs, but his didn't. I don't get how I contact the school for speech help and they come up with Autism. I do really think that I want him re-evaluated. When he was evaluated he was in this giant room with four strangers to him and lots of new toys and things to discover. There was toys, a pit of giant foam blocks, bikes and other ride on toys, and a giant jungle gym. And they wanted him to sit on the floor and play with a puzzle. hmmmm not happening. He is 3 years old and wants to run and play and see new things. Another thing, which is partly my fault, the morning before his eval we were in urgent care, he had a double ear infection and a chest cold. So henry wasn't himself.

I am anxious to get the report to read before they come on Friday for a meeting. She was going to drop it off today or tomorrow but she didn't today so i am going to have to wait till tomorrow. Its just eating at me cause I feel like did I do something wrong? Did I not do something right when I was pregnant? I got him into speech therapy before he was two when he wasn't talking much. His therapist never said anything to me. I just don't get it.

I did email Mark and said things were "okay", I also said that I will tell him when I get the full results. I didn't mention the autism things but I did say that it was about Henry's eval. probably not the best idea to tell him that but at least he wont be mad that i didn't mention anything. He knows Henry was getting tested and that I should be getting results.

I guess thats all for now...love me